One of the interesting things I’ve noticed since becoming a father – more specifically, a father to a son – is that my perception of all things “dad” related has changed. Before Logan was conceived, I looked at stories and images of fatherhood in an “Oh, that’s nice” sort of way. After we knew Logan was on his way, and especially after he was born, I’ve found my perception of fatherhood to be radically altered. “No duh!” some of you might be thinking – but, honestly, until you’re a father to a son yourself, it’s not something you can comprehend. I know I couldn’t. Not having a daughter, I can’t make a comparison, but I’m sure it’s a similar sort of thing. I find myself looking at TV commercials, movies, books, magazine ads, etc. that depict fatherhood and feeling impacted by them in a big way. I really wasn’t prepared for the way my perceptions would be changed, but I’m so very grateful for the new thoughts and feelings that come with this new role in my life. Being a father to my son is something I look forward to with great anticipation, with all the ups and downs that come with it.
This particular issue has been on my heart lately, but was catalyzed today by the passing of my friends son who was born via c-section today at six months of development. He didn’t survive, and my heart breaks for my friend and his wife.